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Tears stain my bed sheets
a thing you’ll never know
I want something back I once
had hours ago.

I never should have treated you,
like the way I did,
but what can you expect from a fool,
Who inside is just a kid

I wish I could say I’m sorry,
and I wish you would care,
but now I know you wont listen,
you’ll never be there

I wish I could tell you how much I hate
myself for doing what I have done
but I cant change the past
and it wont ever be undone

Hours feel like weeks,
and months feel like years,
I let myself become controlling,
so maybe i wouldn't have to face my fears.

But in the end it cost you pain,
more than i ever wanted to do,
I never wanted to let go,
I never wanted to hurt you.

You saw me for the fake
that inside I truly was,
and I began to lie to myself,
creating a chaotic buzz.

I made myself lie to you,
about what I used to be,
hoping it would change the way you feel,
about your faith in me.

You tossed my heart aside,
and let it shatter on the floor,
but it was all my fault,
as it had been before.

So I just want to say I'm sorry,
for everything I have done,
all the grief and stress i caused,
was because I thought you were the one.

I'm sorry...

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i'm startin with the man in the mirror
i'm askin him to change his ways...